Afraid

Simple heartfelt response to a situation yesterday. Not sure how it will be taken but I simply can't forget.

I’m scared the addiction is returning

Words of never again being turned around

The hurts brought upon someone new

I don’t want to see that from you

 

You opened a new account with an old name

A name she and I recognized as the same

That you last hurt me with for love

She wanted to warn me before another pain

 

I checked out the page she speaks of now

The words are like those of yours before

Yet they aren’t words of a physical woman

Instead being the words of Him that I loved.

 

I’ve kept your secret and not told her

Yet feel bad about not coming forward

I sent you a heads up about the warning

A lackadaisical response was your reply

 

Are ya’ll testing me?

Seeing if I will keep your “secret” from her

Does she actually know and laugh at your side

I’ve been hurt by you before, I can’t do it again.

 

So yes I’m afraid, scared, and worried

Am I just something to laugh at;

Your words although truthful sounding

Just the talent of your writing?

 

Will I be hurt again because I forgave?

Will this be an annual event for you?

“Oh let’s get Alee and trick her again”

Another pain for me and joy for you.

 

I’m not blaming, I’m just afraid

I want the honesty yet scared to trust

I opened myself again for a friendship afar

Yet again I’m afraid because of a spiritless response.

Reviews

[curiocity]

No worries, hope we worked this out now. I would never do that crap again, and I am sorry that you thought I was. With time, action, and consistency, I pray that trust can be restored. Still wonder who the hell Danielsfuture is but it sure ain't me.

[Seamstress]

Yes we are fine now. You know me I go through my moments when something is told to me and I write when I finish the writing I pray and talk with the one I was upset about and all is normally better.

[Misty Blue Eyes]

aww you guys are so adorable. seamstress i go through periods of this, espcially when im told something that are missing peices. hang in there and it sounds like you have a good guy by your side

[curiocity]

Ahh Mysty you do not know the half of it ... yet. I am going to be doing some writing and revealing over the next few days. But Seamstress and I are merely good, good friends at this point. And happy with that. :-)