Dreaming Myself To Sleep

Dreaming Myself To Sleep

So distant a memory,
The images are blurred,
Events discontinuous,
Details forgotten,

Time has lapsed in such great quantity,
It shall be like a first once again,
Quivering at the very thought,
Yet desirous for it to happen,

To feel her lips upon mine,
Feel her warm breath,
Wake up to her smile,
Feel my heart pound in her presence,

To trust her with my thoughts,
Trust her with my secrets,
Trust her with my heart,
Trust her with my feelings,

Tempted through the years,
To experience pleasure void of love,
Never giving in,
Even as I sit and cry alone,

Will it be worth the wait?
Will it be worth the isolation?
Love being absent from my life,
Uncertain of its re-emergence,

I fall asleep at night,
The images become clear,
Events continuous,
Wishing my dreams were real,

I awaken the next morning,
Let out a heavy sigh,
Realizing the clear images were that of fiction,
As I look forward to sleeping again that night.