Self-Reflection

Self-Reflection

Is it my face?
Does she cringe when I’m near?
Is it my voice?
A sound she can’t stand to hear?

Is it my humor?
Do my jokes offend?
Is it my body?
Lacking the muscles?

Am I too nice?
Thoughts of my not being genuine?
Am I too honest?
Not ready to hear my thoughts and feelings?

Do I make her feel ashamed?
Do I make her feel inadequate?
Do I make her feel pain?
Do I make her feel stressed?

Rejected is my love,
Rejected is my heart,
Not ever knowing why,
Not knowing where to start,

Stressed by the rejection and drama,
Pain lodged deep and rampant,
Inadequate feelings I possess,
Ashamed of what I remain ignorant.