My Lost Shining Star

There are secret words I never share

Blood stained clothes no one ever sees,

There are those people who never seem to care,

And then there are those people who love me.

I tell them all lies, no matter who they are

And I hide my secrets in a tightly locked case.

A while ago, I lost my shining star...

And then...only a fake smile appeared on my face.

I've had that fake smile for a long while now,

And I can't seem to find the real one; I wish I could.

But that's the past. Can I bring her back? How?

I dont think it's possible, but if I could I would.

I miss my shining star, and I miss my smile.

I miss her kindness, and the way she used to hug me tight...

I know I haven't seen her in a while,

But I want her to take this darkness and make it light.

That's impossible.
And I hate that.

Author's Note

About my grandmother...died when I was 9 I think. I remember her though. So many memories. I miss her like CRAZY!

Reviews

[Felicity's Eve]

So sad... I have the same strong connection with my grandmother. She's like my second mom. I don't want her to die but she's 84 now. It's gonna happen sometime... :(

I love how you called her your "shining star". A very lovely image. :)

The flow of this is great and you are wonderful with words!

[SmileBig :)]

Thanks so much :)

[Felicity's Eve]

:)

[Ahmad Cox]

Aww. I am sure she is watching over you in her own way and I am sure she would appreciate the poem.

[SmileBig :)]

Awww I hope she is, and I hope she does :)

[Ahmad Cox]

I am sure of it. When you truly love someone when they pass they become your guardian angel so the more you love and remember her the stronger the love and protection she can give you.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Such sadness in this. To lose your shining star and to lose your smile, I can feel the sense of loss you have for your grandmother. A sad yet beautifully written poem.

[SmileBig :)]

Thanks a lot.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Welcome :)

[C.C. Marx]

Lost my grandmother last year, wasn't the same for a good few weeks. She was the glue that held my large family together, aunts, uncles, cousins, now some of them barely talk. Its amazing what an impact a person can have but we don't see it until they are gone. Great write :)

[SmileBig :)]

Thank you...and yeah same about my grandmother. My great aunt doesn't talk to anyone in our family anymore and neither does my uncle. Plus he turned alcoholic again after she died :/ it's not the same without her...

[C.C. Marx]

My pleasure, I can understand that. My great uncle refuses to talk to any of his sisters (Six of them) and most of them are doing the same to ach other.

[SmileBig :)]

Aww that's awful :/