Transformed

My fear growing inside

Etched into my face

I know not how long I can hide

More than a disgrace

Lets hope the bible lied

Because if not its made its case

I swear to you I tried

As my heart began to race

And inside I cried

Of my courage it vanished, not a trace

It could not be my guide

In this moment I fell from grace

With all the terror I supplied

As my mind drifted into space

At that moment you killed my pride

And the thing that took its place

Is something I denied

The feeling of the embrace

Of pain and pleasure I could not divide

How could I allow such feelings to take place

As I laid there a part of me dyed

In the part of my mind that was erased

And then it awoke wide

I swear I’ve found my place

And it’s to you that I confide

For others it seems I cannot face

 

Author's Note

Tell me what you think I'm talking about.

Reviews

[Anthony Morningstar]

It made me think of this gay guy that I heard about. Like if he had the chance this might of helped him. He was a devote Christian and he didn't want to be gay. He prayed very hard every night to the point where there big scabs on his knees. Wanting not to want boys. He eventually killed himself. Couldn't live with that fact.

In times like that it's hard to like any relgion for any reason.