Under The Airborne Ashes

The worst I've felt in a long time...

I don’t get it

I just don’t get it

I thought our friendship was strong

I thought it was real

But good things will come to an end

What did I do?

Whatever I did, I’m sorry

Things will never be the same

Things will never be the way they were

I’m alone in the wilderness

I’ve been forsaken by someone I love

And it’s not the first time I’ve been

I just wish I couldn’t fall in love

I’d never be hurt again

The trees are all dead

Torched and smoldering

Ash is in the air

Falling to my face

As I look to the darkened sky

Your voice is in my head

From when you screamed at me

You screamed so loud

So loud

Like I was your worst enemy

You left me shaking

Trembling in the dust

Devastated and confused

Why would you do that?

What would compel you?

I just don’t understand

I see shadowy figures

Lurking about

I hear them growling

I feel their eyes

I need to get out of here

But I can’t feel my legs

My hands touch my face

Tears fall from my eyes

Followed by streams of blood

I pull away my hands

And see them marked with red

I clench my eyes

I inhale sharply

And scream so hard

I almost break my vocal chords

Bleeding

Shaking

Sobbing

Screaming

Body falls to the ground

Squirming around

With handfuls of ash and grass

The excruciating agony

I’m on the verge of begging for death

I’m enveloped in the darkness

While sinister figures gaze upon my flesh

Wanting to consume me

Devour me

And imprison my soul

After my heart stops beating

Just once I’d like someone I love to stay

Not leave me amidst the dead trees

I’m just not worthy

Not worthy to be loved

To be kept

You’ll never escape my heart

Day and after day

Year after year

You will remain in this dying heart

You’ll hate me for awhile

And then never think of me again

You treated me so well

Then transformed into evil

So cruel and heartless

How did I deserve it?

How long have you wanted to do this?

If only you were honest

And straight up

Maybe I could have changed myself

But you never said anything

Weeks would go by

You’d ignore me

And I wouldn’t understand

You said you tried to give me hints

You ignore me for so long

Then offered me a long apology

If you were hinting that you didn’t want me

You were awfully contradictory

First came the fun and laughter

Then the ignoring

Then the apology

Then the rage

You could’ve just talked

Sincerely and openly

And our friendship could’ve been saved

But you concealed yourself

Accumulated something deep inside

To the point of explosion

You were vague

Obscure

Dishonest

And I had to suffer for it

And it didn’t have to be this way

Now what do I do?

Lay under the airborne ash

For how long?

I cannot determine

I’m sorry about everything

Perhaps someone else will come along

And rescue me

I enjoyed everything while it lasted

The sun will not be veiled forever

There are lands in the world without ash

I will not hate you

Just go your own way

I’ll do the same

At least you won’t do anything more to cause me pain

If you're interested in coming back

Come find me

Reviews

[JoJo Hallows]

I got a very vampiric vibe to this. The fact it was written in 5 minutes and is so well structured as Thomas said, is beyond impressive. There's a little attitude to this, like a crossed lover. You hardly show that aspect and it's nice to see you a little bit angry, Lol. There's a passion to it. I really got the resentment of a vampire from this. I thought of "Make Me Wanna Die"- The Pretty Reckless and Lestat and Louis from Interview With the Vampire.

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A highly structured and guiding piece, well done, good read.

[Bobby Madden]

Thank you man. I really appreciate it. I just kinda wrote this in like five minutes. I basically just wrote whatever came to my mind 'cause I've been going through a tough time and I wanted everything to sound organic. Thanks again.

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

your welcome