Forever Invisible

Unlike my other poems this one is actually about myself.

In her shadow I always seem to be
Everyone notices her, but no one notices me
She is so outgoing, but I've always been shy
But I honestly don't think that's a good excuse as to why

 

When I try to talk I'm always ignored
They look at me and yawn as if they're bored
Is the thought of being my friend really so appauling
No matter how hard I try I always end up falling

 

They come up to her and have full conversations
While I stand awkwardly and listen to their revelations
Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually invisible
Or does my small stature make me easily dismissable

 

Do they ever wonder what effect it has on me
Me crying when I'm alone is what I'd like for them to see
Maybe then they'd realize how long I've been standing here
Waiting for someone to notice that I'm quiet because I fear

 

What people will think of me whenever I actually speak
I'm an insecure person and I'm scared they'll think I'm a freak
I analyze every single move I make hoping that I don't look strange
But I need someone elses help if I'm ever going to change

 

For now, though, I'll continue to stand around
Listening to them talk, and as usual I won't make a sound
Their conversation will contine on and I'll never be a part
I wonder what they would think if they knew they were breaking my heart

Reviews

[Fae]

Love the rhymes here, very fluid and never forced. Great job.

[G!o]

I adored everything about this from the structure and how you used simple language to express so much desperation. This is beautifully written and i totally felt it. Good writing!!

[eeoopig]

Aww this is so sad! I used to be like this, so I can easily relate. You just have keep telling yourself that your opinion counts, and keep pushing yourself to speak. Don't care and worry endlessly about what other people think, you are your own person! I'm getting better, so all's good for me :D Good work, this is true for many people!

[Kes]

I think most of us have felt this way at some point in our lives - I know I have. :) It's painful, I know, and it's sad, but you either get used to it or you change. I've changed. And I'm not that much older than you are. Life is so short - you can't live it forever in the shadows. You can't live in fear. Life's too short for that. :)
I'm an awkward person, really. I forget to bite my tongue, or I don't say enough. I try to start interesting conversations, but people just think I'm too intense, or I'm trying to be clever. But you learn. You learn what's okay to say and what's not. You learn that everyone else is just as self-conscious as yourself; so you needn't be self-conscious, because they're not paying attention anyway. You learn that people will try to put you down at every opportunity - you learn to wholeheartedly ignore it. :)
I know it feels like it'll last forever, but things do change. I promise.
K

[Lydia]

Thanks. I'm an extremely socially awkward person, also. I'm the person who never says enough because I never know what to say. I can make characters have conversations so easily, but when I have to it's like my mind goes blank. Or when I do say something it comes out the wrong way, or my words get all tongue-tied because I get so nervous when I talk to people. Oh well. I'm sure I'll get over it one day. I'm trying!

[Kes]

It gets easier. :) These things always do.
K x

[Forever Hidden]

I've passed thorugh this stage countless times. Sad, becuase it happened to you and will happen to a lot of other people. I can not tell you how much this poem means to me. I've been reading this everyday ( since you put it up, but never wanted to comment on it).

Hope you keep writin! :P

[Lina Grey]

I, too, am this way. However I have somehow become fortunate enough to be surrounded by people who care to see us unseen, and care to hear us unspoken. I don't exactly fit in with them, but they are kind and unjudging, and our friendships are wonderful gifts. There are still people who refuse to take notice, but you will find that people aren't as different from you as they may seem. A little bit of courage, confidence, and a leap of faith can go a very long way for your happiness. A beautiful testimony of silent truths. Thank you.

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I found this so sad, because it was your own true thoughts. Shy and vulnerable and waiting for so long to find ur voice. Finding confidence in yourself and what you can offer the world is key. You will be a social butterfly someday and not care what other people think because we are all unique xxxxx Loved it x

[Gothic Girl]

great poem! somehow, i'm like this. but the difference is i chose to be independent, alone, anti-social, etc.it's because if i join them, i'm afraid what they'll think of me. thanks for sahring this great piece. :)

[Harley (arbiter)]

I used (and still am a little) to be like this. Great job capturing it.

[The Watcher]

This is a really intense poem, and I can definitely relate to it. I know just how horrible it feels to be alone and ignored by others, but harsh things like these can make us stronger. I hope thing get better for you soon Lydia, and kudos!

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