For Whom Should I Write ?

I once had someone who used to read all my poems / stories. Now, I wonder, for whom should I write?.

In this dark room, I try to sleep…
This foolish heart of mine, why does it weep? 
Those memories of her, why don’t they fade? 
What were the mistakes, I should never have made? 

Her pretty face , makes my heart skip a beat..
Too stubborn to accept, it’s defeat..
Why does it fret, why does it cry? 
That wicked fate of mine, why cant it defy? 

Feeling forlorn, 
I turn on the light.
Wondering, now that she is gone, 
For whom should I write? 

To put myself to rest, a pen is all I need.
On this very page, with words I shall bleed..

Forcing a smile on my face, 
I try to put the past behind, 
Picking a pen from a case, 
I start writing out my mind.

I write of love, I write of hate.
I write of destiny and fate.
I write of pleasure, I write of pain.
I write all this, in disdain..

Now that it’s almost dawn
I slowly turn off the light.
Wondering, now that she is gone.
Should I ever really write? 

As the Sun begins to rise
I collapse on my bed…
Finally, I close my eyes..
To death, I have bled… 

Reviews

[AprilRN1210]

you should always write for yourself.. not about writing to impress, it is about writing to express... yes, cliche but fitting... this has a lovely flow and pleasant rhymes.. I enjoyed this, but it did tug on my heartstrings in a bittersweet song of loss, longing, and hope... sometimes, opening those scars and allowing ourselves to bleed onto the page is the best therapy for what ails us... to be able to move others with the emotions that we pour onto the page takes great skill and you have done that here.. well done, my friend..

[TheLostMind]

"you should always write for yourself.. not about writing to impress, it is about writing to express... " - You are right. And your current status says that too :P - "We shall draw from the heart of suffering itself the means of inspiration and survival.--Winston Churchill". Thanks for reviewing. :)

[AprilRN1210]

it was my pleasure.. and awwww, how witty and fitting.. yes, I love that quote, obviously:)

[TheLostMind]

Winston Churchill was indeed witty.. :P

[AprilRN1210]

indeed.....:P

[AYVID N]

Loss makes for a better poet than gain. I love the woeful expressions here and the rhyming is so good.

As for writing for oneself...to a certain extent, yes, if one doesn't intend to put it out there for others to read. Otherwise, it should be the grandest, most pleasing tune one can play! After all, its your art on display. And I am not modest.

[TheLostMind]

Thanks again. Different things motivate different people. Some choose to write about love, while others choose loss 😊.
And yes, initially posting it here was not my intention :)

[AYVID N]

I'm glad you did. It made for a good read. You're welcome.

[Isabel25]

Is this that face you were talking about?
I get comfort from writing because it helps me purge. And I write solely for myself; if someone can relate to it then well and good. Even if they can't i don't lose anything. I think everyone here is going through the same situation, we all write for ourselves. Because t some point of time we realise that we are our own heroes, we cannot expect somebody to save us every time...and it is better to bleed ink on paper than shed blood on the floor; i personally prefer blue to red, and the smell of ink to the sour, rusty smell of blood.

[TheLostMind]

Thank you Annie, for your lovely and insightful review :). You are right we write because it helps us purge our emotions. . Indeed blue should always be preferred over red.. :)

[RiverRei]

This was absolutely amazing. I can relate to this (as I'm sure most can) and the rhyme scheme was superb. I love how well you're able to switch the format of rhyme scheme as well and it doesn't even mess with the flow of the piece. I'm amazed and in love with this poem. I'm sorry that you had to feel this way, and I'm here if you would like to talk about things such as these, but at the same time I can't feel too bad because it allowed you to write this beautiful piece of art. Thank you so much for sharing this, I'm going to keep looking through your work and reading more. I LOVE your writing.

[TheLostMind]

I am glad you loved this one. I don't feel bad about certain things in life either. Thanks fr going through my works. :)

[Nadia Gerassimenko]

I used to write for someone too. Or anything I did, it was for someone else. How exhilarating, and yet not very liberating. I learned over the years that whatever I set my mind and heart to should be for myself and to myself first. And if anyone finds any use and goodness in what I do, then that is good, but if not, it's not a loss for me. And that made me more happier and free. You are so talented, keep writing.

[TheLostMind]

While writing poems / stories, I always keep someone in mind. The message is always meant for someone. Without a proper image, I find it impossible to write.. Thank you for this insightful review Nadia.

PS : The last line in your review made me smile.. Thanks again :)

[~]

Well, it has been more than half a year now. Have you found your answer? :) a heartfelt write.

[TheLostMind]

Nope. Not yet. But I will find my answer one of these days. I can sense it ;)

[TheLostMind]

I have found my answer now :)

[~]

Yay!! Happy for you. :)

[TheLostMind]

Yay.. I am happy because you are happy for me. :P.

[~]

Write on!! :)

[TheLostMind]

Yep.. You will see. . :P

[~]

Looking forward :)

[Roshan Nair]

The tension in this poem is palpable..the angst towards abandonment, trying to make sense of it all and questioning ones reasons to pursue a passion so closely motivated by the person.
I liked every bit of the journey you've put here.
This is a great piece.. Keep it up! :)

[TheLostMind]

Thank you Roshan. I am glad you enjoyed this :)

[ms. barrie]

write what your heart needs to express...for you first & foremost...
it's a sense of a relief, expressing your emotions on paper, etc. than actually
trying to verbalize it to someone, and it's cathartic. i was asked this very question when
i took a writing enrichment class a few years ago. my then professor (very, very strict he was);
told me that you don't write for yourself in mind, you have to think of your audience.
i disagree...hopefully, someone will appreciate your thoughts/inspiration but ultimately,
you have to write what's true in your heart w.o worrying what you think someone wants you to write
or "how you should write, exactly like they did."

that said, this is an amazing poem...very profound imagery, brilliant dictation, and
incredible rhyming scheme.
thank you for sharing :)

[TheLostMind]

Thank you Barrie for this lovely review. You are right, we have to write for ourselves. Writing is a really good way of releasing emotional stress. We should not worry about our "audience" :)

[ms. barrie]

you're very welcome, TheLostMind :)

[Coyote Poetry]

I have been writing for over 40 years. I have 40 journals of story and poetry. I used the journals to leave a imprint of what I once was.
"I write of love, I write of hate.
I write of destiny and fate.
I write of pleasure, I write of pain.
I write all this, in disdain.."
I tell the young people. Take many photos and write about the good and the bad days. We will have many of both. I like the honest tone leading to the perfect ending. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[TheLostMind]

We all try to leave an imprint of ourselves. Don't we?. Hoping we will be remembered for our works. :). Thanks again. I can't tell you how much your reviews mean to me. :)

[Coyote Poetry]

I enjoyed your work and you are welcome.

[Leviathus Fortes]

You can't help but to channel emotions into writing.

It's somehow therapeutic.

[TheLostMind]

I agree :).. Thanks for stopping by :)

[Tasfia Islam]

wow.....i love ur writings.......keep it up.... :)

[TheLostMind]

Thanks Annabelle :)