Monster

Monster

I live under the roof of a monster

A monster of my very own blood

He keeps me safe and harms my loved ones

Its poison is slowly driving me insane

 

He is half the reason I was born

Half his traits lie within me

It’s possible that someday I’ll be him

Or perhaps, I am just his new beginning

 

He has suffered a terrible life.

So to me, his nicotine problems are justified

He has a mind that could conquer the world

But maybe, deep down, he was terrified?

 

Tell me, how could you be so cruel?

You hurt an animal less than 3 months old

You must lack conscience, for you have no control

I see what you do to my mother dear

 

Tell me, could you not find a better way?

Did you not have a better outlet?

Or were things different before my time

Preventing you from proper therapy?

 

But sadly, no one understands you.

Like me, you have nobody to confide to.

If I was of your generation, I’d have your respect

And I could have been the one to save you.

 

Your life could have been beautiful

You could have been happy

Your lungs could have been clean

You’d no longer suffocate

 

I suppose you are the origin

Of my need to save a broken soul

It stings me that I cannot help you

But some things in life just can’t be undone

 

I still pray that you be happy

Pray that your suffering may be gone

Some night, I hope, you will sleep peacefully

And wake up smiling like you deserve to

 

We’ve disappointed each other a million times

But like you to me, I could never hate you.

Those feelings, they’re hard for me to express

But when you read this, you’ll be crying too.

Author's Note

Another one of my works from when I was 16. My father tends to be abusive to anyone but me and that bothers me at times, but the fact that he is such a good father to me and he loves me so much is what took me 2 years to publish this. Yes 16 was a difficult time. I'm glad those times are over. And though I still have issues, I'm glad I have more of an understanding of things now.

Reviews

[Carl Drake Barnard]

Hehe wow now this IS what I call poetry emotion!! Well done!!!!! :)Really loved the form and the colours and well everything hehe. And you were 16!? Wow that guy sure did leave an impression hehe. Hoped you moved on, for having such emotion is really heart-breaking... All and all really a fantastic poem hehe. And have to say such raw feelings... I could feel every word OH and love the Heading also!! :) Fantastico!!
-Carl Drake Barnard :)

[Blue Ivory]

Well, I'm glad you liked it, sweety :3

[Dr. Wood ?]

very sad.....can't add much more...I had a wonderful father and i still have a fine mother of 93

[Blue Ivory]

You're lucky :) I hope my parents get to live that long.

[Blue Ivory]

My grandad actually turned 95 last month.

[Speak Out]

Very heartfelt piece, I feel each and every emotion, so well described.Thanks for sharing

Speak Out

[Jack...]

Dhaye, this poem today, you have left a piece of your heart here for us to see. This is so sad and even if it was a few years back, still so very real feeling. Somehow you have managed to write a beautiful piece of poetry about this dark subject. Extremely well done my friend.

[Blue Ivory]

Thank you...I can always be honest in my poetry, but in reality I could never be this brave. Yet for some reason, when I'm writing, I just cannot lie.

[Coyote Poetry]

I had a abusive father. Wasn't to the kids. Was to anyone who came near. He had a hard life and became colder and more lock-in into rum and disappointment. I like the desire to help. I was becoming like my father. I follow his path. Sometime we must step back and learn from the people around us. A powerful poem. It is good to write down the thoughts. Later in life. Can allow us to understand what we need and can be. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Blue Ivory]

Sometimes I feel I might become like mine in the negative sense and it scares me. Thanks so much for understanding.

[Coyote Poetry]

We can learn from them and change our journey. Life isn't set in cement. We decide our journey. Good and bad.

[Tabby Schaechterle]

This piece was good. I find that it is easier to express your feelings through writing. Although it is never okay to witness or feel the impact of what is done. I understand your feelings though. And it is not easy. Wonderfully written :D

[Avinash]

Its a brave piece. Everyone of us has someone like him in our lives