Keeping Silent

a suicide note I had written that I turned into a poem.

I’ve been Keeping silent and hiding the truth

What do want from me? You want you.

Shedding my tears for me when no one asked you too,

Your too afraid I’ll do it wrong,

But all along-

I’ve been keeping silent and I’ve been hiding the truth from all who deserve to know.

What is it you want in me? Why am I not good enough? Or is all the rumors true?

All you want to in me is another you!

I’ve been shedding the tears for all of these years;

I’ve been breaking my back for you, yes I am your slave,

And all I ask back is that You stop being afraid that I’ll live my life wrong!

You’ve been living my life, Telling me what to do! I’ve took your advice, It’s made me a fool! I’d deny you're a fool, It’s not worth a try-Just die.

You stole my soul and you took my life YOU made me hurt and You made me cry

When I am weak you crush me even further. You don't help me when I need a hand

I'd try to reason with you, but these slave chains in which I am kept remind me that

I can only hope that the bullet I'm about to put in my head will make you think, will make you have a soul and make you finally know that my keeping silent is worse than my being dead.