But A Faded Watermark ღ GPG ღ

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But A Faded Watermark I don't understand what you wish  to gain Please just tell me.. I'll do it so I can move beyond this pain You want me gone so I go away Yet you jerk me back just to have another say I don't get this game Its not one I taught you to play What life's debt is it that wish me to pay Is it that I'm still here and draw the living breath Would you be satisfied if I gave you my death I truly can not remember the last phone call gotten of just "Mom how are you" It seems Im of the forgotten Oh my number you know quite well when you have an issue on which you wish to dwell Oh the words have long gone unspoken of just "I love you Mom" leaves my heart broken Of seven I have but two left of the dearest to my heart I pray to my Father above you do not make them depart   I'm already so guarded in what I'm free to say Just how big is this debt you insist that I pay   Please can you not wish me fare-the-well and God speed Can these not just be your final words to me.... You have banned me from your life and have shut me in the dark Upon your heart I am nothing but a faded watermark ღ GPG ღ aka ღ KKD ღ Original by Donna DeLong Matthews © (All rights reserved) January 2011 Visit my Web Site Reflections of My Heart View All My Poems   Enya Watermark ღ God ask me how long I planned on keeping you in my life.  I smiled and said... How do I choose between always and forever... But then I have found thats really not up to me... ღ

Reviews

[ღ The Gold Pen Gh..]

Coyote....Bless your heart but I think you misunderstand it is my children who have shut the door on me not me on them. Until the day I draw my last breath my door always has and always will remain open...

Lesa you have walked this road with me ever since our meeting many years ago. Without you my precious friend I can tell you I would have given up a long time ago. But my forever little dreamer (and Im so gald that you are) beleive'n "Oh Honey they will come around" have now had to admit that they wont and even if they did only at a later time the destruction of my life would only begin again. I love that you had such faith in my children's love (even if they could not love me)
I love you so much and you have no idea of the appreciation I have for you and the friendship you give to me on a daily basis.

Fabian, I have never heard that quote from Shakespeare but it is so fitting. But even with the pain they have caused me over the years. I could not wish upon them the pain they have cast upon me. I have tried to warn them that their treatment of me is training their children how to treat them in their older years.... Oh How I Pray not.... Thank you so much.

[Fabian G. Franklin]

This brings to mind the curse from King Lear:

"If she must teem,
Create her child of spleen, that it may live
And be a thwart disnatur'd torment to her!
Let it stamp wrinkles in her brow of youth,
With cadent tears fret channels in her cheeks,
Turn all her mother's pains and benefits
To laughter and contempt, that she may feel
How sharper than a serpent's tooth it is
To have a thankless child!" William Shakespeare

I know a few children who deserve that very punishment so they would know how a parent feels when love is repaid with rejection (only when they've had it come round will they ever understand.)

[Aspiring Angel]

Sorry for all the misspelled words, I couldn't see real plain to type through the tears. KKL

[Aspiring Angel]

Yes my sweet friend this is an excellent poem, as everything that pours from your heart in pros is. If only this could be an exageration, but alas it is not. My heart cries with yours, and your children, no matter what you my think, will one day be so very sorry, they shut out the one truest of loves they could ever have enjoyed and experienced. A heartache in reverse but this makes me think so much of my Mother. Being shut away, denied the love that is needed so desperately, is the deepest hurt I think the human heart can try to bare. That is why the good Lord gave us friends to somehow try to bridge the gap. Big hugs and as always my love, KKL

[Coyote Poetry]

The poem told a sad and powerful story. We need our parent's love and kindness in a life. Disposing of family leave a emptiness most people need to be filled. I could feel the sadness and disappointment in the poem. We learn many things from a parent. This lesson in this poem is. Be kind to your children and have a open door for them. A excellent poem.
Coyote