To be Announced

I haven’t done this in a while, and tonight’s a new twist

I’m staring up rock bottom from and endless pit

     I don’t have the cash to operate this way

     I can’t even make it, on my average day to day

     I haven’t made a sound to tell my compatriots

      I’d rather die in obscurity than see their face

I’m a mistake that washed ashore from the edgeless sea

A little c**t wrapped in his mind

Can’t see the forest for the trees

So what’s it going to end up with, alone or with me?

      My girl is saying these crazy things

      spinning and rolling in this inane game

      She calls my name when I’m cummin in her brain

      Then I go silent and I start all over again

Hate myself, hate that, can’t seem to escape

I think about death

I think about lies

I think about it all the motherfucking time

       I try my best to awake from this dream

       I’ve forced myself to not cry, to not scream

       After all, it’s in the spirit of the humanity team

       That’s caused a young man like me to drop from the scene

I can’t believe what I’ve managed to do,

and just how close I am to being through

I’ve tried every angle, look at me Pa

I just can’t be you and there’s not a lot of pause

for a suburbia bred, with sentimental flaws

       My friends I call on for the every day

       I discover I don’t understand in the strangest ways

       The ones who come and go, I’ve got a lot of love

       You can take that phone call, and give it a shove

       Because you jetted out at the first sight of…

       the grassy green rolling away

Rolling on through, they say there’s a lot at the end

but I’m not one to offend

with my tales of the trend

Whether or not we make it depends on the spin

Throw the wheel and roll the dice

just to see if you wake up from the night