Half Hearted Prayer to God

A Poem by Spilt Stardust

I've grown up religious. But I've branched out from my roots. I don't believe in what I used to anymore. This is my half-hearted prayer to God.

God please me I'm crying
Slowly fading I'm dying
I poured out most of my soul
But it hardened and shattered
Everything I thought was important to you must not matter
Everything I ever knew was one big lie
Prove me wrong now, God,
Let me see through your eyes
If you truly do love me
Like you say
Answer to me now
Don't let my prayer go to waste
I know I've been doubting
But I have one last hope
And I holding on to it with just a thread
Not a rope
I tell you my pleas
But you never agree
You stay sitting up in heaven
Looking down on me
You're probably saying
No you don't understand
Well, how can I
If you don't give your hand
If you fail me now I know ill feel wretched
How can you cause so much pain
If you're so big and blessed
It's probably "beyond my comprehension"
But I feel like an experiment in which you're testin

© 2015 Spilt Stardust

Author's Note

Hey, I'm not trying to get my work published or be famous. I don't even care if there are some typos and grammar mess-uos. I need to spill my heart out or it will burst. So this is for you all to maybe find inspiration yourself.