Parasite

a song

I'm like a disease by a crippling means
That always needs to feed on other people's fears via this machine
That I can't scratch out of here and I'll confess that I wish to contend
That for you, my sweetest love, this parasite will try to pretend

I see the trace in your eyes and I'm so glad you can't see mine
They'd sell me out like someone stuck a fork in their spine
This sour blood does lie but vitreous only spits the truth
The worst part is I don't just want to change the symptom
But that I'd prefer to keep the mood

Don't forget about me when I'm eating myself alive
Why should you move on, live perfectly fine?
I am dying a less than honorable death
Years spread over sick health and blunt heads
Faces that are meaningless to a parasite
Who is feeding off of this

You're an empty shell of a girl gone rogue
A soul covered in dust once luscious and bold
But the years have withered you worse than any winter could
I'm not sympathizing like a good boy probably should
But it's also empathy that I lack for you and yours
Happy only in your last ink, your final beauty score

I hate myself for this
But I can't stop gritting my teeth, pumping piss
I don't blame you in the slightest for wiping me away
You writhe in pain as I shake in shame, and that's fair

But please don't forget about me when I'm eating myself alive
Why should you move on, live perfectly fine?
I am dying a less than honorable death
Years spread over sick health and blunt heads
Faces that are meaningless to a parasite
Who is feeding off of this

I hate myself
But I can't stop