Pen Kick

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Does love last forever? I have never met her
That dirty little smudge in the light
Who sold you out for their own good
A greedy heart that's pumping wood
And you, the ember
Catching fire with every lie and every smile
But it hurts
And I like that

All along it's been a tale; a storm of thoughts
I don't understand what's not to love about yourself
The box, this hope, all the drugs that I can take
Does it never really count if it can't really break?
Is fragility an indicator of how tough my skin can be?
The pools at the bottom of the tub seem to disagree
But I don't know

I feel the same as I did when I was young
Never found connections that much fun
And here I spit, where we shall sit
Like a pretty pew with nobody in it
I am obligated to seethe this through
A play on my eyes, and my vein's thick dew
Sells me out, time and time again

I've seen the truth and how we bend it
Resurrecting all the thoughts I thought buried
Long ago with a dirty jacket you didn't even like

I've heard the lies when they fall asleep
On the brink of disaster from fresh cut tongues
Bleeding on her bedroom floor so cold and tight

I don't mind, I don't mind shutting up
I don't care if we just stare and smile