I Get it Now

I get it now.
My hope is hopeless,
And my heart forfeit.
How could I love another?
You were the only one that set the pit in my chest aflame.
Right below my heart;
Right inside me soul.
See these burns?
They come from the fire inside
And the acid tears I cry.
No one else could wound me but you.
But there is no one else's sake
That I would expose my fragile existence for.

But I get it now.
I was just too late.
You were already satisfied with another.
How selfish of me to think
That he could just find someone else
And leave you all for me.
But no one can understand this.
None can see my unproven feelings.

I get it now.
He's just better than me.
Him, who is bright and funny and an old friend,
Versus disturbing old me, with a seemingly bipolar attitude and the strangest words.
For a minute, I thought you cared for me,
And let me feel the warmth of your shine.
But then you saw the risks of me.
And pushed me away,
Back into the cold darkness,
Where I can do no action but to lurk.
But everything is starting to make sense.
I get it now.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

When I was young. I was pissed off I didn't get the girl I wanted. Later when I met the Angel I marry and saw what I lost. I was very lucky. A strong poem. Most of us will be pissed off. Sometime things don't happen. Could be a good reason or the real love close by. Thank you for a excellent poem.
Coyote