Because your baby girl is living in pain.

A Poem by Diamond Dunbar

This is to my father, the first man to lie to me. The first man to be betray me. The first man to crush my heart. Excuse the rage, I had to get it off my chest.

Dear Darrin,
I'm ashamed of you.
I'm ashamed to say I'm related to you.
You don't realize how embarrassing it is with the s**t that you do.
If I could pick my father, I promise I wouldn't chose you.
I will thank you for the things you did do because I was raised to be grateful, yet it wasn't by you.
Considering you lost your Mother to, I thought you would've cared for me different.
But you treated me like you treated your women you was pimpin.
Keep them happy enough to stay out your face.
You know I don't remember your face in the crowds when I was showcasing the skills you put down.
Yeah I'm sorry I'm not an athlete, but I always found it funny for you to be uneducated and try to knock me down.
I think it's about time, I disregard your existence now.
I was never enough for you to love me as is, because of you I'm starting to notice my pattern w/ men.
I've settled for guys like you because you are what I'm use to.
I overlooked guys like my Granddaddy because you said he ain't a man to me!
That man has been more like a Dad to me!
He's been more of a man for me!
I can't say the same for you, you've been like a enemy to me. How we share the same blood going eye for an eye?
M**********r you kin to me!
Look at the bullshit you did to me!
You can't tell that s**t is alright!
I can't help it if you see my Mother when you look in my eyes.
The problems y'all had was before my time. You gotta man up and face life one day.
I can't remember a time we didn't argue like wolves.
It blows my mind how I fought my Grandma for a relationship with you.
I would give her hell just to get close to you.
You'd say your on your way and I'd never hear from you again that day.
You never said you loved me, man do you know how long I've been dying to hear those words.
I had a hard time loving myself because I didn't know why you couldn't so it made me feel like I couldn't.
I hope you know I didn't ask for you either and I hope you know I don't want you in my life either.
I hope these women give you the love you've been chasing cause it's obvious your life is complacent.

© 2016 Diamond Dunbar

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Coyote Poetry

I had a AWOL father. I did forgive him in the end.
You never said you loved me, man do you know how long I've been dying to hear those words.
I had a hard time loving myself because I didn't know why you couldn't so it made me feel like I couldn't.
"I hope you know I didn't ask for you either and I hope you know I don't want you in my life either.
I hope these women give you the love you've been chasing cause it's obvious your life is complacent."
The above lines is true for many. Left and forgotten. My AWOL parent made make me a good parent. Thank you Diamond Dunbar for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote