Shades of Life

With a long week behind me, and a weekend to sleep and detoxify my system, I'm looking forward to another 5 days. I need to make some adjustments to the course, keeping things moving in the correct direction. Gentle course corrections, keeping my confidence in the processes and the end vision. I'm not pissed off anymore, which I suppose is good. I'm trying to regain that zen state where the vision and the process justify the hour by hour annoyances. We'll see how it goes. I'm not anticipating anything less than misery, but we'll give optimism another crack.

On a more personal note; I experienced a few moments of 'still' and was somewhat okay with it. I didn't need to be intoxicated or so sick that I could justify the rest. Just a few moments of 'still'... Working out what that means, and if it truly is a good thing or not, but there was a time when you could walk down a single thread of thought and find peace in that. Living a multi-threaded life, and working a multi-threaded job, has a tendency to steal any sense of peace and linearity from you. I guess I can understand why people cling to it to a fault, because it is safe, comfortable, and easy to live with. I've also learned that attempting to exist in a multi-threaded universe 100% of the time is unhealthy as well because you start to loose perspective and vision amongst the possibilities because they're endless. If nothing is ever concrete, it's nearly impossible to take comfort anywhere.. So as anything, there's a balance to maintain in there somewhere. It's yes another branch on the binary tree of items to balance which all together create this large network of equilibrium. heh. probably should be sleeping eh?