Help

I just can’t seem to get it right.

No matter how much I strive!

No matter how much I fight!

Again and again I fail and I fail,

I collapse, exhausted,

To weep and wail.

I have grown thin,

The bones beginning to show

Through my pale skin.

I cannot eat.

I am not hungry,

Not even for anything sweet.

I have bruises from my falling.

I snap easily,

Constantly screaming, squalling.

I am tired; I feel ill.

I’m being held down

Against my will!

I can’t do it! I can’t take it!

The disease has dulled

My once sharp wit.

It must be perfect every time.

I must be able to turn perfectly

And stop on a dime.

I can’t sleep.

I’m plagued by dreams.

Let me stop to catch a breath, to weep.

I feel like the Hunchback.

My neck, back, hips,

Always needed to be cracked.

I’m growing too fast,

My body can’t catch up!

I have to make this little happiness last!

When will I feel the brush of his lips against mine?

I don’t mean to be irritating,

I don’t mean to whine.

But I’m in real pain,

As you can see,

I’m under so much strain.

But he still loves me for me.

The OCD is taking me by force,

It’s taking me along

Its deadly course.

I don’t know what to do!

I fall out of turns,

I miss my cue!

It didn’t bother me before,

My failures and agonies written

On my heart’s musical score.

But it’s okay, it’s alright.

He’s here beside me.

I’m not alone in this fight.

Reviews

[CrimsonDecorum]

I know who "he" is! He is the guy that I think he is right?

[Rose of Gondor]

I am.......speechless. This is so beautiful and so true. :)