Jar of Secrets

We all have that one friend who was once good...

My body holds a heavy burden

One that you put upon me very often

But you are too blind to notice

That is why I keep this heavy smoke hidden

One day I decided to take a jar

A mason jar to be more exact

A opened it up and pushed the smoke in

It was tough, but I did it

Smoke is hard to clear

But you don't know that

Every day the smoke gets heavier

The secrets piling in on my heart

My eyes droop with confusion

My mind spins like a Ferris Wheel

It's slowly trying to process everything you tell me

But I can't take it

The throbbing of my heart is annoying

I can't take it

That's why I want you to realize how hard this is

I don't understand? You don't understand!

Every time there is a problem

There is another secret to put on top of it

Why can't I just have a peaceful conversation?

I just want the good times to come back

I could never have those come back though

My wave of tears whisked them away a long time ago

You wonder why I cry

Yet you should know by now

The world does not revolve around your problems

Yet you seek the attention

I can't believe you

You've changed so much

My vision is starting to get blurry

It was once a still and clear pond

But the light touch of your finger ruined it

Now my vision ripples with emotions

My heart was light as a feather

Eyes like twinkling stars

Feet that danced with the wind

Hands like soft cotton in the winter

Now those happy days are gone

They slowly drifted away as we grew

I kept asking myself if I went wrong somewhere

I blame myself for what you do now

Now my mind is blind and I can't think because of you

My jar of secrets is drowning me in guilt

The jar is going to break

Then your secrets will flutter away

What will you do then?

Yell at me and call me names?

Will you shun me, and go on to someone else?

Dumping all of your new secrets onto them