Jumbled Janga

my brains function,
it was once at a miraculous pace.
now it all jumbles together,
making writing difficult to face...

my words are becoming confused,
and it feels as if it's just in my head.
which is ironic to say really,
because I feel close to brain dead...

I could once write three poems in a one night span,
now it's becoming an obstacle hard to avoid.
I sit down and try to write,
but the words don't come, feeling like it was all decoyed...

why is it that my words crash together like the symbols of a band?
I try to focus on a word but all I hear is the marching and the music.
Its a simple task at my hand,
but yet my brain decides to refuse it...

As what I am writing is true,
the words don't make any sense.
I try to say one word but can't remember it,
the need of people is becoming closer and closer hence...

I dedicate time and effort just to think of the word retreat,
I try for minutes, pausing my sentences to think.
I give up a sigh in defeat,
and recall to mind "this brain fart really stinks"...

it's not just a "brain fart" however,
I have no idea what it is.
I cannot think straight,
It must be a diagnosis...

I feel like a preschooler,
just learning new simple words.
the simple words I know are becoming entangled,
and people believe it's absurd...

I try to tell them I forget what to say,
but they think it's all in my mind.
I need to see someone soon,
and have the physcotic paper signed...

This reminds me of a game,
you remove one block at a time waiting for the structure to topple down.
it's a unique description of my thoughts,
it's all jumbled janga...