Dichotomy

Nowadays I just experienced a dichotomy of a worldview of one willingness to abide by golden rules; hypothetically in the thesis, one meaningfulness in life is blinded by moral rules, which turn them into slaves. To�"form akin foolery and behavior of discursive vigorousness, in one soul’s slightest trivial affair that can easily turn solvent. Whereas to proudly prostrate consequentially in bitterness, could easily deflected with peaceful confrontation. 

If only, I could have vicariously comprehended such perceptions of forms, I would expiate its unholiness. I prayed for their redemption, well-as moral conduct in understanding others’ ideology, I had seeped through wretchedness from others' wrongdoing, in the belief I must be culpable. Due to my shortcomings, the root of my mistakes, nuanced perspectives of which I blamed anyhow. My indoctrination here�"is merely to pray, and hope for acceptance, albeit the significant consequences of my absolution, I also believed in an iridescent reprieve of the solution. I had lacked inquiry for my uneasiness of one wanton demeanor, full of vex, acrimonious with resentment for the need to be blamed. How immaturity of sex, persuades discontentment yet shows sympathy foreboding abundance of hatred undulation, foreknown my undesire contemplation of thoughts desiring for forgiveness. In the hope of root that sprung full sereneness, where others’ acknowledging other's mistakes, perchance such triviality will be solved with tranquil, yet the simplicity unfounded utterly under the bitterness of one conduct. Apart from being monumentally ostracism ensnaring the dullest form of pity and anger, accosting divinely, what I have reciprocated the unusual behaviors of morality, I have known the absurdity it emanated. I was striding myself through the foliage of contemplation and germinating fully unwelcomed oblivious incurred for altruism. Yet, at both ends, the red string was torn whither mishmash, reemerging an actual vigorous persona who experienced the benevolent of actuality and furtively denied the norm of basic human behaviors. As one who seldomly tacit strong amenity of a prig, lacked between conscientious and self-altruism no fit than a filthy ravenous, inane of a creature mustn't be provoked aloof as there will be consequences.