So If This Is How It's Going To Be

Well, I actually have time to write now. So... I will upload that to DA later once it's up to my standards.

A few notes play 
And I realize
That I still don't
Know how to cry
Unless I am so
Uncontrollably angry

I feel like I should be 
Pushing whatever
Makes me feel this way
So I can fully express what
Is deep below the surface 
And untapped creativity

I can't even hold onto
What is more or less
Nothing but disgust 
I used to paint pictures
From nothing but raw
Emotional vomit

Okay
If this is how it's going to be
Feeling like I should be writing
But I don't have time
and I still feel out of control

But it doesn't matter
It's only a matter of time
People have gotten famous
Without thinking half as much 
As I have before I was 14

Repeated thoughts don't count