You

I want to love, but I have no one to receive it.

Ambrosial nectar filled my lips

Mesmerising, tantalising

A taste is never enough

And addiction governs us all

I couldn’t stop

I wanted it

I needed it

I couldn’t stop drinking it

It permeated my skin

My heart, my body, my soul

It was electrifying

Every touch made my body burst into flames

Burning down every single one of my senses

I am now a shell

A shell filled with lust and longing and desire

A shell which cannot think but can only feel

You beside me, inside me

Consuming every part of me

Unable to take mind off to anything but you

Pity you don’t exist

You never did

The rough hands gripping my curves as you enter

Vanish

Poof

Along with you

As if you were never here

As if everything was a movie with my mind being the screen

There was no popcorn, however

Only pain

Only the knowledge that I have no one

No one wants me

Or wants to be with me

But I need you

Someone, anyone

Be a strong independent woman they say

I am strong

I am independent

I am a woman

But I still need someone

To curb by lonesome

My appetite

Most of all my desire

I want someone

Like you want that video game

Some people just want specific things

And I need you

But you are not real

I can bend my imagination to concoct you

Bend like the writhing bodies I make up in my mind

But that won’t bring you to me

But it will make me crazy

Which will make me hallucinate

Bring you back to me

Making me suffer once again

As I again will realise you are not real

It’s a vicious cycle, my precious

But its contradictory too

You are a part of me

Imaginary you may be but you make up my mind, my thoughts, my existence

If you don’t exist, I don’t as well

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

My first time :) roast me and tell me how to improve!