Nothing But A Puppet

I'm pushed around again,

Thrown around, hurting us as I try to get to my feet.

But I feel like a puppet,

The strings being moved by Death as I cry.

Feeling hopeless.

I scream as the people push me away from them,

Not wanting to help me,

Not wanting me to have to help.

But once in a past time,

We used to help each other,

Now I'm the only who remembers that time.

I wish that they could stand by my side,

That they could see how hard I'm struggling.

How far I've fallen and have not stopped yet.

These words I've had to keep locked in me.

I love them as they will never understand.

I give those in need,

The most that I can.

And the people that say that they are my best friends.

That they know me, they understand what I'm going through.

They don't even see the mask hiding silent tears.

None of them care to move the mask,

To try and understand me.

None of them could ever begin to see the me I am.

I try to not feel like a puppet,

But the world is holding the strings holding me captive.

I try to scream,

The master keeping my mouth shut from it's ears.

The people watching me be a puppet laugh.

They find it funny to watch me struggle.

I cry at nights and as girls paint my face.

Hiding myself from the eyes and ears of the crowds.

Nothing feels real to me as I preform again and again.

Never to do anything but play along.

Never to stand because I want to,

Never to say what I want to.

And to never love because of the cage around my heart,

When I'm not the keeper of the key.

The key that will set me free.

Reviews

[D]

Sounds very familiar. Been down the road for too long, before I've said f**k it all, and start burning inside. Cut off all those who hurt, or just ignored, or been around to use me. No matter the pain... Either it hurts for a few days, or forever.. Your choice. I'm relating to this one. Reminds me of those darkest days. "I stand in crowd, yet I'm all alone" heh.. Very well done. Don't give up though. :)

[JoeReads]

wow, beautiful poem! whilst reading this the first thing that came to mind was "is this the perspective of a closeted LGBT person". I think it was this line that made me think that, "These words I've had to keep locked in me". It's a lovely read, well done :)

[Tessah]

Thank you Joseph.