less of me

I wish i was more like you and less like me

That i could feel the sun on my skin and not feel guilty

That i could take my clothes off and not feel ugly

I want to know how you feel so bold

How you stand there with little to nothing on your body and don't feel the judgement i feel

I want people to see me the way they see you

People turning their heads to just get a glimpse

While i see heads turning away when they see me

I know what it is like to feel like nothing

Because people toss me aside like an old toy whose batteries died

All they had to do was charge me and i would work the same again

But i was too much work

I wasn't worth that for a simple smile they would receive back

I want that laughter i see you give

I want that smile in eyes i hear them talk of

I wish i could breathe again

And not feel out of air every time

I want to smell the perfume you wear like you want people to notice

I can see the swishing of that perfect eyeliner you have put on so well

Who is it for?

Maybe yourself…

I should get up

Out of this bed

Put on clothes

And try

But why would i try so hard for nothing

Because you are the one that catches eyes

And I am the one that shifts them away

Reviews

[BlackPrince]

I find this to be touching. But one thing that I can advise is that you should learn to appreciate and love yourself first. True joy is within all of us. Keep doing the positive things that keep you happy, such as your writing for example. Your happiness is not based on the input of external forces and factors. Learn to value your mind, body and soul; and be content and not envious or jealous because you are unique in every way as your Creator made you.