Here the coffin comes.
Small and white. Being
Lifted out of the
Black Hurst by one man
Holding the two brass
Handles, walking first.
All heads are turned; some
Faces are on you,
But you do not see,
You only see the
Coffin and the small
Bouquet of flowers
Lying on top of
The white lid. The man
Walks slowly, grim faced,
As if carrying
A small gift; a gift
To be returned (such
A crime to return
It before its time).
You keep the coffin
In your sight, not for
One moment does it
Leave your eye’s hold, your
Mind’s grasp. All heads turn
To the front, where the
Priest stands by the font.
He looks too young to
Understand grief, the
Biting hold, the deep
Gripping ache, the dark
Dumbfounded ness that
Sits within, the blank
Empty hole where your
Beating heart should be.
An organ plays, a
Cacophony of
Voices begin to
Sing, but the words of
The sung hymn seem too
Heavy, too solid
To comprehend this
Deep grief you feel, this
Your baby’s end. You
Remember the last
Hold, the final gaze,
The concluding kiss.
Your baby’s there, tucked
Up in the coffin’s
Hold. The simpleness,
The whiteness, the small
Compactness of all
You ever wanted
Wrapped and boxed. Numbness.
The chill from the air
Is hanging there. The
Pulsating pain now
Tightens. Your eyes hold
The small gift soon to
Be taken. To some
Just another day,
Another time, all
Else, all others go
Their way, the world moves
On like nothing’s wrong.
But this is the day,
Branded in your brain,
Mind and memory,
Never once to be
Forgotten, never
Ever far away.