SELF DECEPTION

A PSYCHAITRIST AND PATIENT

Self deception
is the worst deception
he said
it betrays
deep within
and when
the collapse comes
as it will
the two sides
are spilt like
two sides of a truth.

The quack sat
and listened
and lit up a cigar
and wrote down notes
looking up
now and then
and peered
at his patient
understandingly
or so appeared.

I thought
I thought it through
but I hadn't
I thought of only
those aspects
I wanted to look at
and think about.

The quack raised
thick eyebrows
and put on his
I know what you mean gaze
but inside thought
the patient was out
on a limb and had
no idea what to do for him.

I knew I didn't like it
but I pretended I did
I deceived myself
I fooled myself
and then I opened up
to myself and there
were two of us
me and him
the f*****g cuss.

The quack frowned
puffed out smoke
stared at the patient
through a cloud of grey
just another patient
just another day.

Reviews

[Omikron]

Somehow, people seem to imagine psychiatrists as magical fairy god mothers with a special spell to break the sadness and troubles, however, all they really do is help you dig deeper within yourself, and push you out on the thin ice, hoping that you fall into the ice cold water so that you hopefully can wake up...
Thought provoking read, it's so simply written and yet so delicate and beautiful, a story written in a nice way. I liked it and it was easy to read and relate to.

I always do appreciate your poems.

Thank you for sharing.

// O

[Terry Collett]

Thank you for reading and commenting

[Andrew Leister-Frazier]

All psychiatrists do besides prescribe medication is to fill your head with self doubt. What if self doubt is the cause of your illness?

[Terry Collett]

Good point, Andrew.

[Tony Jordan]

I left mines after he kept 'falling asleep' - I kept telling myself the appointments were at the end of the day, he must be cream-crackered and the heat in the place too, and he was a septuagenarian but his eyes always closed like that made me feel like s**t. lol.
I can really relate to this one TC.

[Terry Collett]

Thank you, Tony. You understand.