![]() UNCERTAIN DESPAIR.A Poem by Terry Collett![]() BOY AND GIRL IN LONDON IN 1950![]() ![]() Lydia follows her big sister out of the flat; she is tall and has a blonde explosion of hair, eye-shadow so thick she appears clown like. She walks off with her tight-dressed backside swinging away. I watch her go, fascinated how she manages to balance on such high heeled shoes. Be glad when she leaves home, maybe then I get to have my bed back, Lydia says. How does she balance in those shoes? Practise, she's worn them since she could walk, Dad says. Her big sister, Gloria, goes down the slope and out of sight. Where we going? I ask. You decide. What about taking a train to Peckham Rye? Have to get some money; I'll scrounge off Mum. So she goes indoors and I stand outside the door looking out at the Square, hearing voices from within. An old guy walks past with his Boxer dog, he nods to me as he passes. Lydia's mother comes to the door with Lydia behind her. Think I have loads of money? Think I can afford to let her go here and there just on a whim? No, I have money, my old man gave it me for polishing his shoes, not that they needed polishing, but he likes them real bright brown. I don't give a damn where you get your money from, but I haven't money to waste on a train journey for her. I can pay. You? Sure, I have enough. She is silent (miracles happen). She stares at me with her beady eyes. If you are paying, then she can go, but no monkey business, no getting in people’s way. She walks indoors and leaves Lydia standing there wide-eyed and open mouthed. I can go? Sure you can, but no monkey business, whatever that means. No climbing trees, I guess. We set off together through the Square and down the slope, she looking back, I taking in her thinness and lank hair, and that look of uncertain despair. © 2014 Terry Collett |
StatsAuthor![]() Terry CollettUnited KingdomAboutTerry Collett has been writing since 1971 and published on and off since 1972. He has written poems, plays, and short stories. He is married with eight children and eight grandchildren. on January 27t.. more..Writing
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