I ride on my bike to the farmhouse
with Milka's brothers
after Saturday morning work
we dismount
and I wait with my bike
while they go in
there is a dull sun
and a wind coming across
the fields
won't you come in?
Milka's mother asks
gesturing to me
from the doorway
sure I will
I say
and walk to the house
and go into the warm kitchen
cup of tea and toast?
she asks me
the boys have gone upstairs
to change
yes that'd be nice
I say
I look about the kitchen
at the pots and pans
and shelves and cups
and the large oven range
and the table and chairs
in the corner
sit down Benny
she says
I sit down
and she is busy
with cups and toast
I listen out to hear
if Milka is about
I watch her mother
fuss about with things
to one side
Milka about?
I ask
if she knows you're here
she'll be up
and dressed in seconds
the mother says
not turning around
I hear voices upstairs
laughter
shouts
and then Milka
come down
and into the kitchen
they said you were here
and I didn't believe them
as they are always
teasing me about you
she says
where have you been?
her mother asks
tidying my room
like you have asked me too
Milka says
about time too
never seen such a mess hole
when I was a young girl
we had to keep
our rooms tidy
the mother says
Milka pulls a face
behind her mother's back
it's done now
she moves towards me
and kisses me quickly
on the cheek
I hold her hand
and squeeze
I suppose you
want breakfast now?
yes please
Milka replies
her mother says
what do you want?
I'll get it
Milka says
she goes off to the larder
and I watch her move
her blue skirt
and white top
the buttons open
at the neck too low
(her mother would say)
the legs
the way she sways
her hips
as she walks
here you are Benny
the mother says
and hands me
a plate of buttered toast
and a cup of tea
thank you
I say
and she moves off
to the other room
and I hear her move about
Milka says
didn't know
you were coming here today?
thought you might
like to see the new Elvis film
I say
she smiles
sure if Mum'll let me
she says
she goes off
to see her mother
in the other room
I eat the toast
and sip the tea
and listen
there are hushed voices
and few sighs
then more voices
it'll be my treat
I say
I’ll treat her
Milka and her mother
come into the kitchen
it's not that
the mother says
it's just that
she's been grounded
the weekend
for misbehaviour
I look at Milka
who pouts her lips
and looks at me
I see
I say
and look at the mother
she gazes at me
and her eyes
are soft and brown
and she says
but I don't see why
you should be deprived
of her company
because of her naughtiness
she will not be allowed out
next Saturday though
she says
Milka beams
and her face lights up
and I say
thank you
I’ll have her back
in good time
the mother stares
at her daughter
and I mean about next week
she says
I know
Milka says
her mother goes off
to the other room
we kiss
and she goes off
upstairs to get ready
I finish my toast
and tea
thinking to myself
lucky me.