Jane's kisses
were not then
sexual,
but they were
sensual,
in that they
woke up those
senses that
had before
been dormant.
Outside school
after that
school bus ride
to our homes,
and others
had gone their
separate
ways apart,
she remained
hesitant,
her being
on the edge
of some vast
awakening
within her.
Can we walk?
She asked me.
If you like.
The school bus
had gone off,
the others
not in sight.
We walked down
the side lane,
grassy banks
on both sides.
There is talk
at our school
of a girl
in my class
who's pregnant.
What girl's that?
I asked her,
having a
vague idea
what it meant.
Jane drank in
each aspect
of nature
about us:
butterflies,
wild flowers,
the song birds,
the bird's nests.
Can't say names,
Jane replied,
mustn't judge,
Daddy said.
Her father
was parson
of our small
dull village.
She's our age?
Yes, Jane said:
just 13.
Her black hair
had two grips
either side:
neat, precise.
Her school skirt
was dull grey,
with white blouse.
What happened?
I then asked
not knowing
the process
of those things.
I don't know,
Jane replied.
She didn't,
because she
never lied.
She stopped still
and looked down
at the stream.
I stopped, too.
Those flowers
give the scene
completeness,
Jane then said.
God given,
not man made.
She knelt down,
I knelt, too.
She fingered
the flower,
brushed along
fine petals,
dipped fingers
in the stream.
Whose baby?
I asked her.
She pulled at
the skirt's hem
to her knees,
brushed fingers
which were damp,
on skirt’s cloth.
We don’t know.
Some local
boy I guess.
She stood up;
so did I.
She looked up
at the sky:
birds in flight,
puffy clouds,
spread of blue.
What, I asked,
did they do?
Jane followed
with her eyes
across sky,
a swallow.
Love those birds,
their wing spread,
how they fly.
I studied
how she stood,
her dark eyes,
her back hair,
her pink lips.
We had kissed
and now there
I needed
to kiss her
lips again.
Not quite sure
what they did
Jane’s lips said.
Our eyes met.
Hazel and black.
More than kiss?
I asked her.
Yes, Jane said,
I expect.
She came close.
Her small breasts
touched my chest.
We kissed shy,
then less so,
our lips moist,
our tongues touched,
senses stirred.
Our eyes closed.
Our lips met,
hands entwined.
Not pregnant?
I enquired.
No, she said,
more than this
required.