I had ridden back from work
that Saturday midday
with Milka's brothers
and we parked our bikes
in the farmyard
and Yaakov said
want to come in
for a coffee?
Sela said
and see Milka
while you're there
he laughed
and we all went in
the farm house
and their mother fussed
and asked me
what I would like
and treated me like a son
and said
sit down Benny
and so I sat
and waited
for the boys
to change out
of their work clothes
I have made
a fruit cake Benny
would you like some?
their mother asked
that'd be nice
I said
and watched
as she moved
about in the kitchen
is Milka about?
I asked
she's out with her dad
they've gone to market
o ok
I said
they'll be back soon
she said
she handed me
some cake on a plate
and mug of coffee
Milka likes you
her mother said
but I told her
to take things steady
as she's only 16
and there's plenty
of time ahead of her
I looked at Milka's mother
as she fussed about
in the kitchen
putting a pot
on the stove
clearing away others
yes plenty of time
I said
trying not to think
how Milka and I
nearly got caught
in bed the other week
when I was alone
in the farmhouse
with her
she has all these fancies
about her how much
she wants children
where she wants to live
and so on
the mother said
I told her
Benny's only
a young man yet
he doesn't want
all that at his age
I ate the cake
nodded
and thought of Milka
rushing to get dressed
in her room
while her mother
talked with a farmhand
in the farmyard
or the time
at my place
one Friday
during my lunch hour
at my house
while all others
were out
she lying there
on my single bed
and I kissing her
from neck down
plenty of time
Milka's mother said
they've no sooner
left dolls behind
and they want real babies
she smiled
and I smiled
then ate the cake
and sipped the coffee
while Milka's mother
put some things away
trying to think
of other things
other than Milka lying there
completely bare.