![]() SHE LOVES HIM NOT.A Poem by Terry Collett![]() A WOMAN TRIES TO WASH AWAY THE MAN SHE USED TO LOVE.![]()
She sits on her bed
brushing her long brown hair with the brush her mother gave her. She has had a bath, needed after being with him, the way he was, and for so long. The bath so relaxing, the water just right, being able to lay there, water over her, suds from the borrowed bath stuff( Gabrielle need never know), she feeling the water fondling about her breasts, washing him off, dissolving him in the suds. She brushes him out of her hair, each long stroke and a bit more of him is gone. She stops and thinks. Mid air the brush and hand stay. Was it always that way? No, there was a time when seeing him was a pleasure, she actually used get excited when he was to come, actually looked forward to his presence, his love making, the things he used to do, the way he did them. Now, she dreads him being there, making love to her, his fingers in her hair. She brushes again, downward strokes, takes out the knots that gather at the ends. Was it ever love? Was it other than physical? Just a game of the sexual? She puts down the brush and gazes at herself in the old fashion mirror. Still passable, still presentable, still has it in bucketfuls as he used to say. But, no, she supposes not, never really got to her heart, never quite made it that far. Liar, she tells herself, you loved him more than any other, used to lay awake at night thinking of him and his next call, it wasn't just sex after all. No, I suppose not, there was that strong element of love, that other than just the physical, other than the sexual. But that makes it worse not better, the fact I loved him once, she tells herself, takes it deeper, takes it to the core of the heart, that place where each string of nerve, each particle of being is torn open like a ripe fruit and sucked dry. She's just had sex with him, just the physical, just the lying down and taking it bit. Now, she loves him not, the lying, cheating s**t. © 2013 Terry Collett |
StatsAuthor![]() Terry CollettUnited KingdomAboutTerry Collett has been writing since 1971 and published on and off since 1972. He has written poems, plays, and short stories. He is married with eight children and eight grandchildren. on January 27t.. more..Writing
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