AS HE HAS BEFORE.A Poem by Terry CollettMENTALLY ILL GIRL IN HOSPITAL IN 1971.
The charge nurse closes
the door behind Yiska. Can I go home? Not yet. When? When you are well enough. I am well enough. We think not. Who are we? The nurses and the doctors and I, think you are not well enough. But I feel well enough. You are on the inside looking out, we are on the outside of you looking in. So? We see things from a much different angle. But I feel well. Feelings can betray. But I feel well. You think you are well. I am. We think not. But what do you know? We are professionals. But I know what I feel inside. The charge nurse taps his pen on the desk, Yiska coldly stares at him. You tried to cut your wrists. Tried yes, but I stopped. Not soon enough. I am here aren’t I? The fact you decided to cut your wrists says you are unwell. It was how I felt then. Feelings again. It was a dark time. Wait until you are better when the dark days have gone. You mean ECT? It helps. Not me. Some it does. Not me though. We saw Improvement, we think. You think? We professionals. I get headaches. Side effect. I feel sick afterwards. More side effect. Yiska screws her hands in her lap. The charge nurse stares at her. You mix well with Baruch. He’s kind. He’s a patient. He is unwell like you. I like him. He has his problems. Don’t we all? He will not help you. You don’t help me. He will not. I like him. So we are informed. You spy? We watch. Spy. We need to watch all of our patients. I want to go. When you are well. Now I want to leave here. The hospital? Yes. No. The room then. Here. Yes. Ok. Yiska gets up from the chair. The charge nurse sits there watching her. She draws her nightgown tightly about her as she leaves the room. We are still watching you and Baruch. Yiska says nothing. The door closes. She sighs. The charge nurse folds his fingers over his large paunch and stares at the door and folds away his captured image of her naked as he has before. © 2013 Terry Collett |
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Added on August 30, 2013 Last Updated on August 30, 2013 Tags: 1971, MENTAL ILLNESS, HOSPITAL AuthorTerry CollettUnited KingdomAboutTerry Collett has been writing since 1971 and published on and off since 1972. He has written poems, plays, and short stories. He is married with eight children and eight grandchildren. on January 27t.. more..Writing
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