BREATH FULL OF SIGHS.

A YOUNG MAN AND HIS DEPRESSION AND HIS MOTHER IN 1968.

Benedict's mother
stood by the twin tub
washing machine
lifting the steaming wash
from the washer
to the spinner
with wooden tongs,
her eyes focused,
her arm straining.

He watched her;
a book, Plato's Republic,
lay open
on the table
by his hand.

He studied
the red hands,
the worn fingers,
how she wiped the wet
from her forehead
with the back
of her hand.

Plato’s Philosopher Kings
seemed too hard
for his delicate mind
at that stage,
 the Greek world
too far off
in the past
to give him comfort.

Maybe you ought
to read something lighter,
his mother said,
pushing down
the washing
with the end
of the tongs.

Find it hard to read
at all at present,
he said,
everything’s
an effort.

Making the effort
is part of the effort,
she said.

You don’t want to be
in the hospital again,
do you?

He closed up
the Plato book.

He wondered
how Julie was.
He’d not seen her
for months.

Good job too
his mother
would have said
if she had known
about her.

No, he said,
not there again.

His mother spun
the washing,
the noise ratted
the machine.

He rose from the table
and walked down
the passage way.
The machine rattled still.

He went in the back room
and put Miles Davis
on the hifi.
The muted horn,
the saxophone weaving,
the drummer
keeping pace,
jazz on a highway,
he closed his eyes,
head full of darkness,
breath full of sighs.

Reviews

[Penlady]

Sometimes...a drummer keeping pace is just enough tempo to slow ones racing heart...Isn't it fascinating that crucial and mundane so many times, go hand in hand in life...the mother expending her physical energy on the needs of her life, while still being able to encourage her son who can't muster the energy to keep himself going...life can be, at times, too much all or nothing at all and still must be dealt with...
your writing brings a flurry of thoughts to ones mind...

[Terry Collett]

Thank you for your insightful reading of the poem, dear Penlady.