He Really Hates Me

Please don't tell me I'm blessed
And I no longer think I want your prayers
These cruel tricks I burn through
Would make me think God only loves players

How much more humble can I be
When my only thoughts and feelings are how to breathe
What more is needed to enlighten me
From this lesson book I have a degree

God damn I'm sick of being the butt of the joke
This double temptation could be all she wrote
But I know we're both taking a step back
And we both know we can fix what the other might lack

But timing, circumstance, made this all wrong
You were against all my odds and then you came along
Only now God is playing this isnt the devil's trick
Another f*****g test God damn I'm sick of this, s**t

He made you the one that would catch me as I fell
Thats the f*****g reason you're in my life and that I'm not quite in hell
How much more obvious could it be, the perfect saviour
The one who knows me the best, and loves me even more

Everyone acts like have patience, and God will reward
Yet all I deal with is his wrath from his fiery sword
He killed me by letting the devil have my beautiful angel
Then dangled you in front of me as he laughed from the angle

Ah, ah, ah, Lee she's married even though she may love you too
Do unto others, oh wait, you've had this s**t done to you
Goddamn right so why is it always a game I can't win
You know that woman can save me, help me to live, again

Such a cruel cruel trick that you love to play on this broken man
Who only f*****g lives to love and be loved and can't understand
Keep kicking me while I"m down it's already too late to get up again
This soul is so shattered and my body shutting down, it's the end