Help Gone Wrong (Or Did It?)

This one goes out to my dearest friend....I felt from the moment we met I had known you for lifetimes, different than the bond I shared with my wife...a wholly unique experience.

I'm so bad for wanting you
I'm so bad for you wanting me too
I take the blame for this mess we're in
I take the blame for you considering sin
Two minds bonded over lives of pain
This connection nothing short of insane
Except....you're newlywed for the first time
And I still love "her" my angel in crime
But she's gone, abandoning me broken to the core
But I wonder who you got married for?
Should we have been able to see what we see
In each other in our hearts our souls that bleed
So this is what happens when two empaths sit to chat
Broken so much in life and find each other like that
I confess with you I felt something new
Like you really were wearing my other shoe
This wasn't suppose to happen I think we both agree
But you let me set the rules so inside you could see
Your job was to get me to open the jails of my mind
I said I want to know you if you expect me to unwind
We both opened up and next thing you know
Something that can't be, started to grow
I ran away out of fear of what I felt so strong
You finally settled down after what must've been so long
And here I was an unexpected dream
Or maybe I'm a nightmare, because now I want to scream
I've been hooked on you like heroin
Craving you holding me again and again
Why did my savior have to arrive with a ring
And why did I appear in your world and make your heart sing
Never, ever did I want to play the bad guy
But I struggle to let go of you, and hope these feelings die
How can I do to your relationship what destroyed mine with ease
Be the other man, I wish my heart would just seize
Keep telling myself you're just the crutch that I need
Downplay the feelings and accept it's just greed
You made me feel special and I let you fill a void
I saw hurt in your past and my feelings got deployed
I leaned on you so hard I got stuck
But I bless you're strength, to stop this I guess it's luck
Before it went too far and it ended in regret
But dear God the chemistry flows still, a path has been set
Two tortured souls have found each other long last
Only bad things could happen if they let themselves crash
This story is all for us my dearest one
I'll try and admire you from afar, a mile like the sun