"Obsessed"

So, so sad you could say that
As if nine years were a joke
As if I didn't swear my life to you
And believe in promises, you have broke

So, so sad you don't understand
That I'm a man of honest voice
And these vows  you easily threw away
My faith in love, believes I have no choice

So, so sad you gave up so easily
On a family man who gives all
Who has ALWAYS loved you endlessly
And called you honey, sweetie, and babydoll

So, so sad you don't comprehend
We were settled down, best of friends
Best of love, best of everything
Happily ever after, even after this world ends

Obsessed....I'd call it love
I knew your heart, fit like a glove
Obsessed....I'd call it bound
I gave all to you, unconditional, up or down

Reviews

[Marianne Rose]

I like this poem because it really says "no, I'm not obsessed, I take my vows seriously, I pledged these vows through it all". So many take vows casually, can exchange partners easily as if our word and promise are disposable. But they're not. Just because she didn't take it seriously doesn't mean that you didn't. Let's not diminish that kind of love that makes vows for a lifetime anymore and call it something it isn't, treating it like an addiction. Let's remember how sacred a vow is, and that some of do not break them, no matter what. Thank you for this thought-provoking write.

[Teddybearlee]

Hmm..must fix typos..lol, guess I didn't proofread this one :) But yes, she said "obsessed" in a very recent email...and I about lost it...do I go overboard on trying to prove myself and show her why and how, yes, I can't deny that I probably do (I actually published a book of my "nice" poems about her, the multiple tattoos I have received with our names, yes, after we broke up, I had no tattoos before, the facebook page dedicated to my struggle through this, sharing my writings here, fixing up things in the house how she would want them/if she were to come back), BUT, there is no "stalking", there is no harrassing phone calls or texts, I send the occassional email letting her know I still love her and I'm still here, I NEVER ask my daughter about her or her boyfriend or what goes on there, from the day she moved out, I've been of mind the less I know about what she's doing, the better and safer, unless she were to come "home", if I want to know, obviously she has to be honest..but even then, I tell myself what I don't know won't hurt me (except she obviously needs to prove she's "clean")...it will be one of those initial hard trials to get past, I know, but as I've said, I DO believe I can forgive and let go. But yes, this is an indirect response to her comment..and I'm sure many others feel the same..but...these are my shoes, no one is getting hurt, and thats the most important thing...I do what I feel I have to do.

[Teddybearlee]

And yes, I got myself sidetracked, the vows and promises I made not just to her, but to myself, are what makes this, what it is, it is why I fight so hard, not only do I feel like I let her down by not keeping my word to her, but my word to myself, it just seems impossible for me to have to break these promises to both of us, I think I would drown in so much guilt, especially because I still truly believe everything I ever thought of her and us.