Volumes of Silence

I sure would like to know God's opinion of what I'm doing
Not that it would change a damn thing
He could be the voice of a trillion people
And I'd still continue on my journey of the ring

But maybe He'd say something different
And tell me I'm on a path of never seen enlightenment
He hasn't seen a soul so tortured in ages
Yet maybe I grasp a message that others were never sent

But right now His voice speaks volume in it's silence
As if I don't exist in a world of His hands
And you wonder why I feel forsaken
When all I do is follow my heart's demands

Love.....is that not the message we are all suppose to hear?
Well I f*****g scream love at the top of my lungs
From each step on the stairway to heaven
Or my trip down to hell, on each ladder's rungs

No living being can preach what I long to hear
Now I wonder if there are answers in the on the other side
I'd rather not die to find out to tell the truth
But I'll be damned if I'll live long on my current ride

Do you not think I've been on my knees pleading?
Do you not know that I've cut myself bleeding?
I'm almost out of breath from breathing
Tell me, who looks like THEY'RE deceiving

Post Script For the Masses
 
I can't apologize for my doubts
I can't apologize for my questions
We all walk on different routes
We all learn from different lessons

Travel on my twisted path so dark
This feeling in my veins is I'm on my mark
Yet it's always just out of grasp
The hand of the one, I want to clasp

Reviews

[Marianne Rose]

I can relate well to the feeling that God has forsaken us, or that we want something God doesn't want for us. And you're right, in that space, there is no message that can reach in, preaching or otherwise. There is great frustration, anger and despair in this poem that rings true to the walk through your current situation. I don't have any words to say to you other than you have shared your heart, honestly with us, the readers, and many of us have been to hell and back, so we know the intensity of such an experience. You may be alone with your loss and your intense emotions, but you are also connected with all those who have felt these things, and feel validation in your honest sharing of what this journey is like. So, good work putting it out there, and letting us feel what you're going through, and maybe others will resonate with this also, and you will know, how much a part of the human condition this pain is. Love can be torturous when it is thwartEd so completely at every turn.