The End Equals the Beginning

I was raised, by hate an alcohol
Threats and follow throughs
Always taking the fall

Guilty always assumed
Sister a saint in father's eyes
My future was already doomed

Insults stick like super glue
And I was covered from head to toe
How does a child ever get through

The words last longer than the welt
Angry young man they made me
But the desire in my heart to be better was dealt

Both parents cheat, I discover
They hit each other, screaming
As I watch from the stair case, under cover

All money towards their habits is all they care
And I am one of the trash at school
Generic clothes, smelling of smoke, dirty hair

Father grabs me by the throat
Screaming and spitting his fury
Retard, failure, loser, make a sad childhood coat

Is it any wonder why I am who I am today
The importance of finding someone like her
Who I believed loved me for me, all of me, she'd say

God and life finally handed me a gift
I had to learn how to handle it, yes
And I did, my angel, in her love, adrift

I wanted to believe in a love thicker than blood
As my blood was tainted
That two could love unconditionally, through any flood

In the end, I lost, alone as always, the fool
Never wonder why I say I'm cursed
This writing is a fraction, for this broken tool

Alone, at heart