No Fake Sunshine

I kept the pieces together for so long
A shattered life, a broken heart, born in to wrong
Living through a battered world, a child with no choice
The cries back then, never heard, never by my voice

Put down, beat up, put out on my own
I survived, on hate, the seeds were already sewn'
From trash to here, I made a path, I guess I should be proud
I kept myself from six feet deep, growling at the crowd

You're stupid, you're retarded, words that sunk in
Out of the mouths of parents, out of the minds of kin
What childhood, what happy times, the anger made me dwell
I held on way too long to this, I put myself through hell

The king of grudges, the inherited temper not in check
Broken walls, bruised fists, self hatred to reflect
Yet I held out, on getting help, I wanted to save myself
To get revenge, with success, and learn to better ones self

I let my anger lead, until I met a woman of dreams
The greatest angel of all time, radiating love in streams
She taught me how to treat someone, like the princess that she is
I let go of a temper, and learned to love with a kiss

For her nothing could be out of reach, I locked up the beast within
I found myself in a better place, wow, did God let me win?
Settled down, in a place I never thought I'd find
Welcome daughter, I love you wife, now this was a frame of mind

All the things I lasted through, from childhood till then
I let go, that was gone, I found myself so close to heaven
Few believe, I could change over night, but I did so with pride
And I am real, look in my eyes, never do I hide

One day, all that had befallen before, seemed like a circus ride to me
As my wife walked out, my savior, my queen, the one that helped me believe
I knew right then, right away, for once I would not have control
I knew I had to get help, nothing could prepare me for a broken soul

These little helpers the doctor said, should help me to survive
Three times I listened, months gone by, and still all I did was cry
Do you think its possible the soul is stronger than this medicated therapy
I'm back on my own, those fake sunshines, held no sway over me

All my life I never sought help to overcome my demons
Now I did, yet no relief came, as i drift across the seasons
She doesn't leave my mind, my heart so overburdened
I truly think my soul was split in two, my life has been so shortened

Theres no help for those fallen in to this deep abyss
When you've lost it all, all that matters, wandering in the mist
No words, no pills, no temporary cures
One foot in front of the other, carrying the weight the heart endures