What Would I Do

Another random 2am writing.

A year coming so quickly, yet every second is forever
A time frame given, but as unfair to me as never
Would you be settling, walking back through the door
The days elapsed you requested, to find yourself, nothing more

Had you come back in a random time interval
It would be easier to swallow this visceral
As I would know you missed me clearly
At least a part of me I'd believe you hold dearly

But I know the man I am, what my heart desires most
Maybe I could prove it again, to you, not your ghost
There can be no half way make me believe you true
Bandage this heart, cauterize these wounds I accrue

I have no choice but to believe your spoken mind
As I live and die to hear them, destiny aligned
I want nothing more than for this constant waiting to dissipate
And have faith the love we had, we can recreate

Say the right things, act the right way
Think things through, before you say
And remember this one in front of you
Would give up himself, is suffered in knots, you can help him undo

I know, this is fantasy, but its what gets me through the day
Is my hope of you, coming home, coming home to stay
Every scenario runs through my damaged and distraught soul
The price was higher, than I wished, but I'll still pay the toll