My addiction.

This is my first attempt at writing, but i'm proud because I've never been able to let my feelings out in the past.

My addiction controls my life,

It controls my thoughts.. my emotions and my feelings.

It tells me that wrong is right and i'm invincible.

It takes my every thought and turns them into hatred.

It makes me distance myself from those who love me and those who care.

It makes me feel empty until I wrap my lips around the glass pipe and inhale the thousands of deadly chemicals..

As soon as it enters my system I can see the light again.

I'm addicted to meth.

My worst enemy and my best friend at the same time.

The thing that's destroying my life,

but making it livable.

The only thing that's always there when I need it,

but killing me when I've got it.

I'm 2 weeks off 1 long year clean..

and I still miss my dear old best friend!

But I can't go back,

Because meth is a best friend that never let's go!

I got one chance at escaping,

and i'm taking it..

Otherwise meth will take me.

Reviews

[Einstein Noodle]

this is heart wrenching for me ...meth is one of the worst of the worst drugs ..cheap ..instantly addicting ...destroys the receptacles in the brain, that give us feelings of happiness, by tickling them .. i love that you posted this first poem ... exercising expression in poetry is so powerful ..an allied force within us that can heal beyond our hopes ... so nice to meet you, M. Angel!! :)
E.

[barleygirl]

For your very first time out, expressing the deepest feelings with raw honesty, this is an amazing effort! Wow! I've been writing for decades & I still find it hard to get in touch with this place you are writing from, this vulnerable place of offering your heart to be broken by possible haters & hapless critiques. I have had my addictions, so I know you've described this well. I like that it's not given to drama, but just telling how it is in a calm & measured way. I have a feeling you may be writing about this in more than one way, as the years of your writing life continue . . .

[Coyote Poetry]

Addictions. Many kinds of addictions. Some dangerous and needed.
"Because meth is a best friend that never let's go!
I got one chance at escaping,
and i'm taking it..
Otherwise meth will take me."
Few of us control our life. Many kinds of drugs to keep us safe. I liked the honest tone to the words. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote