Missing Cooper

A farewell letter from a desolate woman.

Cooper,

I know you will never receive this letter, but I don't care. 

I miss you, love. I miss you more than you can ever imagine.

I was a fool for trusting the doctors.They didn't know what they were talking about. They still don't. They said you had time, but they were wrong. Oh, so wrong.

I remember the last day we spent together; our last date. You took me to the park on Westfield Avenue. You brought food for a picnic, and we sat under the big oak tree by the lake. I remember everything as if it were yesterday.

We were laughing so much, talking about pointless things like we had all the time in the world. When you smiled, my whole day got brighter. When you laughed, butterflies spread from my heart to the rest of my body. When you kissed me…I never wanted to leave your arms.

You looked beautiful that day, handsome; almost healthy. But you weren't. You knew it, and I knew it, but we wanted to make this last as long as we could. So we did what anyone else would have done. 

We ignored it, pushing it to the back of our minds. I guess we were hoping that we would wake up one day and the cancer would be gone.

We were so young; so foolish.

If only I had known that would be the last time I saw you healthy; happy, I would have done so much more. I would have told you how I really felt.

The next time I saw you, you were laying in a hospital bed unconscious. I don't know how long I sat there next to you, begging for you to wake up and tell me that it would be okay, like you always did.

But you never did. You never woke up, never said another word, never smiled again.

And neither did I.

I'll love you always.

Julia

Author's Note

*Cover made by me!*