Nothing Left of Me

I can't promise you that I will always be there, 

because what if I can't be?

I can't promise you that I can make you happy,

because I don't even understand the meaning of the word.

I can't stand the fact that I can't trust,

because you give me no reason to. 

Please believe me when I say I will always love you. 

I can't let go.

It's not in me. 

I want to hate you, I want to hate you so bad. 

But I can't,

and I hate myself for it.

You ruined me,

and everything I could be. 

To the next one, 

I can't promise you my whole heart, 

because I don't have it.