Hormones

I  have found a glimpse into the world of women. It is so very complicated and emotional. Having this new view I wonder why they deal with us at all? I of course know some of the answer but am bewildered by the rest? I spent last evening watching a series of films about serial killers. This of course is not something done by a female unless she was Jodie Foster and about to join the FBI. I personally was amazed at these men! I have watched films of these killers and life takers for awhile now. It is not because I am morbid but just want to see if I can grasp their thoughts or thinking. I believe I have come up short. I simply become disgusted and revolted.

This business of serial killers has been around a very long time! I read of one at the Chicago Worlds Fair. That was some time ago. It seems that most of the recipients were women. Granted many of these women were prostitutes and drug users but this is so wrong. They would sell their body and time to some lowly scumbag but never a thought to harm unless provoked. Eileen Wornous comes to mind.

Women are the fairer sex and should be protected and cared for. This brutality towards them is diminishing my spirit and hurting my soul. You need not care for them personally but you must protect.

I have found myself in a medical situation for the last year that requires me to have large doses’ of hormones and all that brings with it. I am now able to cry at the drop of a hat or at a piece of poetry, a film or song. Sometimes uncontrollably. Waves of emotions sweep over me every few hours . Unable to understand or control. I was reading one of my own writes today and it took me twenty minutes to stop laughing. Not even sure it was that funny. I will break out in great sweats and can be timed. All this is not natural to me but I have come to understand the female from their perspective. At least somewhat!

I find myself so much more sensitive. Don’t get me wrong here. I have always had most of these feelings but now they are so amplified. I am not a different person , just more open and receptive. Maybe these drugs are a blessing? I think not , for I believe I would still write these missives and carry these feelings. Just differently. I have always been able to express myself and fairly well.

The point here is that females are incredible creatures. They have their bad sides and I always wish to avoid those. I speak of the majority. I have come to understand the feelings they must have for a not yet born child. The emotion involved here is simply incredible! To be the giver of life and the life support! The nurture and great care to be taken and for long a term. To welcome this and all it brings.  At least in most cases’.

Men have for so long been the curse , the cause , the uncontrollable source of greed and warfare. I am weary. I am sick.

I am now able to feel many of these emotions and understand so much more than ever before. I now have a new world view and perspective. It will not change my basic thinking but will  modify it.

I salute all you pretties and wish you all the happiness your life can accept.