I'll Be Fine

Why does this always happen?

Why can't I make it stop?

I see the hate,

I see the disgust,

Undisguised in their scrutinizing eyes.

They don't see the pain,

They only see a silly girl,

Unaware that she's lost to another world.

They don't know about the fear,

Hidden deep inside me.

They don't know what I want,

Or why.

I know I'll never tell them,

I would sooner die,

But then my secret would be known,

And they would wonder why.

Why tell them the truth when I can lie?

I can always say that I'll be fine.

They'll believe it

So why can't I?