Her Again

I try to fight the urge to scream,

To hit something,

To hurt something.

I want to drag the blade across my wrist,

Let the blood drip to the floor.

He told me he loved me,

Which I honestly didn't believe,

But now he's back with his ex...

Again.

I don't understand why.

I don't understand what I did wrong this time.

He told me he wanted me, not her.

Why do I even try?

Why don't I just give up?

I know I'm not worth a thing,

And I know I'll never be happy.