That Lost Feeling

I run through my thoughts of them all.

My eyes start to flood

And I begin to feel lost again.

None of them care.

It's obvious.

All of the bands I listen to,

They don't know me.

They're the ones that I thought cared,

But I've allowed myself to see.

They don't know me.

They don't know I exist.

They can't care.

They wouldn't know if I went through with it.

My sister said I'm a piece of crap.

My brother always calls me stupid.

My father knows I'll never be enough.

My mother makes sure I know it's true.

My boyfriend left me,

Because he saw I was falling apart.

He couldn't help me.

I was gone too far.

My friends are all gone.

They never cared in the first place.

Now I'll sing along

To every song of every band that I ever thought would care,

And I'll sing while I break myself beyond repair.

No one sees me,

Dying inside.

No one cares.

I get that lost feeling.

I never want to feel it again,

And I know if I do,

It might be the end.