I Feel Myself Caving In

I have no one to talk to,

So I hold it all in.

Once again,

My body feels fragile like a bird's.

For such a long time I have escaped this feeling,

But now I can feel myself caving in.

I'm lost out in the woods,

Not even a moon to keep me company.

All the trees are broken and decaying,

Corpses,

Just like me.

You aren't a corpse,

You're just feeling sorry for yourself.

I'm being poetic,

Learn the difference.

Talking to myself,

Locked in my own head,

With only the company of the cold air,

I feel myself caving in.

I want to reach for the razor,

I want to reach for the pill bottle,

I want to reach for the gun.

No one would notice,

No one would care.

I'd be doing the world a favor.

Why can't I do the world that favor?

I'm a failure at failing.

I fail at life and I fail at death.

Why can't I just get a little deeper,

Why can't I just not throw up,

Why can't I just pull the trigger?

Why can't I just do the world a favor?

I can already feel myself caving in,

And I know I can't do it.

Reviews

[Daenerys]

Taylor, you know you can always talk to me about anything. I talk to you when something is really bothering me because I know that you can make it better. You're my best friend and I would definitely care if you left this world.